Thursday, August 4, 2011
My dream this morning.
I was driving on a trail with a pack of cars, it was similar the the Rouge River trail but it was higher up in the mountains and everything was sun drenched. The truck kept slipping left to right. I get out of the truck to start walking instead but the trail was so narrow I slipped, right into a snakes living space. I was so paralyzed with fear I couldn't move my leg out of the way of his bite. First he only tore my jeans at the knee, then he finally nicked me. a rattle snake. I pulled his mouth open and threw him. I wasn't bleeding bad, just like a swollen mosquito bite. It was red around the wound. I started walking and in a blink of an eye I saw every one else sitting at picnic tables. I told every one what happened and the solemn look on their faces told me, because we were so far away from a hospital, nothing could be done. I had said it out loud. One guy, who I don't think I've seen before, said he had an idea. I went with him after looking into the face of every one there. No one could make eye contact. He grabs his kids and Luke and had me sit in a chair, away from every one else. Meaningless. His boy dances, his girl plays with my hair. I feel the bite getting hotter and the father, who looked less like a physician and more like a part of the cast of a show about hillbillies and hunters, yelling. "It's starting! hurry up!" he shouts. I know it's not going to work. I asked him if this has ever worked and he neither spoke nor looked at me. How many times has he done this, I wondered. I hold on to Lucas wondering if I should slow my breathing. As if he heard me Luke instructed me to "breath softly." My brow was sweating, my leg was aching, my heart was pumping way too fast. I was remembering the faces and felt sad for them. I wanted to talk to them one last time. Then I didn't feel Luke's arm anymore, I didn't see those strange people dancing anymore. I looked at an unpolluted sky with the whitest clouds I've ever seen. I saw... Innocent looking people. Pure people. I was floating and I couldn't look down, only up or horizontal. I thought about the people I left behind. I was worried. Then I woke up.
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